Habits... the good and the bad.
The transition from 2014 to 2015 has been very interesting so far. Since last spring I started donating even more of my free time to some of my favorite, local, non-profit organizations and small businesses.
It seems the more time I give away, the more energy (the good kind) I have. Yes, I'm always busy. Yes, there are less opportunities to be by myself than I had previously. But I find that when I do have free time I'm using the time to give back to myself as good as I have been giving to others.
I'm finally finding time to invest in me and my health, eventhough I have zero free time.
How is that happening?
Well, it's starting with my habits. I have a very bad habit of zoning out when I'm on my own. I eat unconsciously, I sleep too much, or watch TV till my eyes hurt, completely zoned out from my body and mind.
I've found that I'm simply not motivated when I'm alone. Probably my extroverted personality, but I'm better when I'm around other people. It probably harkens back to the times growing up when our house was always a mess, but as soon as we knew company was coming, it was all hands on deck to get the house "Company Clean".
Why can't I live in a house that is always "Company Clean"? I'm still working on that one, and for now living my life a little like a performance of who I want to be when it comes to my health. Fake it till you make it a good habit.
I may be alone at 5:30am when I make the choice to get up and go work out at Waterland CrossFit, but it is partially because I know this small group of people will be there to say "Good Morning" when I get there and "Good Job. Have a great day." when I leave. The rest of the day is spent reminding myself, that HEY, YOU DID GOOD this morning, let's not ruin it with a poor choice at lunch or dinner. I'm vocal about my diet for the first time. For me, dieting has always been something that I don't talk about so that I don't have to explain why I failed... Again...
Not this time! In my 10th week of CrossFit and 4th week of a modified Paleo Diet and my friends know it.
I'm still feeling like I'm faking it at the gym and during the day, but at least it's a good habit performance instead of a bad habit of zoning out.
Cheers to making 2015 another year of making good habits, even if you have to fake it till you make it!